Bishop Tudor Bismark was preaching at Pastor Dick Bernal’s church, Jubilee Christian Center in San Jose. I wanted to go to hear him as he is an intelligent orator who understand the word of God. He always brings about some powerful thought processes. That brings about, for me at least, further knowledge and wisdom of the word of God. He is a kingdom teacher and that excites me as I am a kingdom citizen.
Last night was no exception. He preached on prophesy and the difference between prayer and prophesy, something I strongly believe in. I bought a copy of the DVD because I will chew it up and eat every last drop until I understand it completely. If that was all that happened last night it was an excellent powerful night of divine appointment.
Only it wasn’t. It never is with God is it? When you raise your level of expectancy, God always rises to blow your mind further than you dreamed possible. He does this, I believe, to make sure you continue to raise your level of expectancy even more so.
I have a prayer that I have lifted to the Lord. It’s such a deeply personal thing that I have not shared it with a living soul. Yet, it has consumed my prayer life in the last several weeks. I prayed this prayer every which way I could, rewording, re-petitioning and thinking that if I came at it with a different angle God would bring me peace and an answer. Yet both alluded me. Peace and an answer were far from me. Instead of giving up, I got more resolved. I got to where even the thought of the prayer would bring me to tears. I was desperate for an answer. Have you ever been so desperate for an answer that you feel yourself anxiously awaiting some sort of sign or word? Nothing happened.
I was excited to go see Bishop Tudor. I was going as a student to learn about more bible truths. I wasn’t not even thinking about my prayer or an answer. Not a single thought. So as God always does, He took this night to blow my mind again. Bishop Tudor came down off the platform and touched several people bringing them a word. He touched my hand and gave me the answer to my prayer. In a crowd of 1000’s God chose this moment to show me that He loves me and cares about what I care about. I closed my eyes and thanked him. I didn’t dare breathe deeply until we got to the car when I lost it and began to cry.
Who am I Lord that you are mindful of me? God never ceases to amaze me. No matter how long I follow Him, I am always amazed when he gives me an answer. I expect it, I anticipate it and then when it comes, I am completely awestruck. God you are so good to me. Better than I deserve and I love you with all of my heart!
What are you expecting? What are you praying for? Don’t give up. Your answer may be delayed but it’s coming!